Cinemascope

You can help him at least get a trial in the UK

I don´t know if there was one. I read papers, follow the events that shape our world and society. This was probably such an event. The Swedish media ignored it. How did this happen?

 Hi everyone

I recently retired from 20+ years with NASA. I now work primarily as a consultant in the private sector. My particular areas of specialization have fortunately kept me relevant, which in this economic climate is fortunate indeed. I'm too old to learn many more new tricks.

I'm pretty new to communities like this one. My awakening has been a long time coming. I am still coming to terms with how many times I chose not to be curious, chose not to be honest (with myself), chose not to wonder why, while still being an expert in a domain (science) where I excelled at wondering and finding out very big whys. Somehow I just didn't apply that same curiosity to the exploration of the many peculiar things I saw directly and heard indirectly from colleagues. I wish I could claim it was ignorance, but I think it more likely fear. I didn't want to give up the relative security of my world view. Ultimately the situation became untenable; I had to give up my naivety, and in so doing give up a position that had so long been my identity, and my source of subtle yet profound arrogance and pride.

I've devoted most of my free hours over the last year to trying to rediscover and reframe my career and experiences, using new curiosities to find new explanations. It's been a painfully difficult therapy, but I really have no other choice. The process of researching and documenting my memories may lead to a book or perhaps just a blog. So far my motivation has been the salvation of my soul rather than the education of others, so it's hard to know where things will lead. But I so appreciate communities like this one, and the desire to give something back (to the ability I'm able) is powerful. My courage has grown because of yours.

I am afraid I must hide behind anonymity at this time. My livelihood still depends on comfortable relationships with my former employer, and my former colleagues. I don't want my sins to rain down on my children. I've got one in college, and one who'll be there in a few years, and I can't afford to risk the income I need for their education.

Thanks again for the work you all have done to begin significant exploration of all these topics.

"John"
Former Project Manager / Senior Engineer