It's been a month since I last wrote here... What has happened since then?

Well, I havent been feeling to great this last month... My anxiety and worry has been stronger than ever. My manager has noticed that something is wrong and I have had meetings with him. He arranged for me to talk to someone... So now the long and probably abit painfull process is up and running. Im glad I talked to my manager who is very supportive and helps me so much!

Hopefully this will help me move on from so many things.. and help me feel better about myself...

At work again today. My day off yesterday consisted of getting my nails done, running some errands, cleaning my appartment and doing some laundry. I only had time to do 2 machines cause the drying cabinet was broken so I had to hang all the clothes in my appartment. =/

I did some major cleaning in my livingroom and I started with the kitchen. The rest Im gonna try and get done tonight. Fun Friday right ;)

Tomorrow Im going to a children's party and then Im going out to party with my sister and some friends. Im gonna try a rather new club here in Malmö (finally!) called Club Park.

On sunday Emelie, the girl who owns my appartment is coming over to get some of her stuff and to talk about the contract and such :)

Oh well, lunchbreak is over now ... Back to work!

I took tomorrow off from work. I have some errands I have to deal with and take care of. I also have some major cleaning to do at my appartment, laundry and Im gonna get my nails done in the evening. Im off from work, but not really ...

My 25th birthday is coming up in october and I am planning a big birthdayparty. The problem is that there are already too many people on my list on who to invite...

Only my relatives on my mothers side is about 50 people. Then we have the relatives on my dads side, people we know and are good friends of the family and my friends. The list can be made very long... And I have to pay for it all.  Even though it's MY birthday ... I can't just rely on people to make me a birthdayparty so I have to make one myself...  I hate this

No matter what I do someone will get hurt ...

This sucks...

I think we should have one more day in our weekends. Make thursday the friday and let us be off on fridays aswell... That way it's a little bit more equal ... ;)

This weekend has gone by pretty fast like the rest. On friday I went to Malmö Festivalen with Stina, on saturday we went to see a friend perform and then we went to Anderslöv and our cousin and aunt for another "festival" ;) On sunday we visited my brother and his girlfriend and then I stayed infront of the tv all day...

This week I have some things planned, but not too much. Today I was gonna go to the gym, but I didnt have time this morning to pack my gymclothes. Im gonna see a friend over a coffee and then Im gonna go to a concert tonight with my sister and some friends. The group is called Svenska Akademien. Its a Reggea/Rap group from my part of Sweden. :) On friday Im gonna go see a group called Familjen with some friends. On wednesday I might meet up with another friend aswell, if our schedules match ;) Other than that, I dont think I have something planned for this week.

Every year in august there is a festival here in Malmö. Its a week filled with artists, free activities, music, performances of all kind, food from all over the world and LOTS of people every where. And the best part - Its free! (almost... we, the taxpayers pay for all the artists and such, we just dont realise it)

I didnt like to go up there before as it gets very crowded, lots of teenagers run around acting tough and all that food and candy attracts a whole lot of wasps and bees... ;)

This year its gonna be fun though. Tonight I might go there with my sister to watch a band called Perikles. (hahaha), tomorrow a friend is gonna perform with her dancegroup and on sunday Veronica Maggio is gonna sing. I will probably go there some days next week aswell.

I will just have to put my gard up for those enoying kids, the crowded areas and the bees... :)

Here are (as promised) some pictures of my nails done by my very talented sister... :) She is studying to get a diploma in Nail Technology so that she can start her own nail salon.

Once a year my whole family is gathered for a day/evening/night of fun. We meet up at noon and then we play games and drink and just enjoy our selves and have fun ...

Its almost time this year so I was looking at the pictures from last year to get in the mood and remember how much fun it is :) Here are some pictures for you guys (whoever is reading this)

Me and my sister getting ready for leaving the house


This is how we start the day


The house we rented for the day. It takes a big house to room all of us hehe


How many cars to you think there are? One of the days many activities


My team! :D

Us playing :D

Stina brings out some more alcohol

Mom takes a zip

Ewa takes a zip

Malin takes a zip


Stina wants some aswell

Some good breakfast the morning after

I cant wait for the happening this year. We will be almost twice as many as last year and my brothers and bigsister is coming aswell! :D

I have been to the health care centre today. I have had a cold all summer long and now I was fed up with it not getting any better so I made an appoinment for this morning.

I have slept at my moms tonight and just before leaving the house I realised that I had left my bankcard at home. I called my mom (a little panicstricken) and asked her if she had any money at home, which she of course didnt... =/ She thought that I could get a bill on it instead if I wanted to though. A little bit nervous and a little bit late I almost jogged to the health care centre. Phew, I made it in time AND I was able to get a bill aswell. Nice!

The doctor looked in my throat and in my ears. He hit me in the forehead and on my cheeks. No sinusitis at least. Sore throat and a stubborn cold, penicillin it is...

Now Im on a 10 days course of treatment using penicillin... Im done with it just in time for our big family gettogether next saturday .. Yes! Untill then... No Alcohol...

Yesterday we went to my aunt and cousin. My aunt is a fortuneteller and my mom wanted to know what is going on in the next couple of months ...

After work I went to my moms work and then we took a quick pitstop at McDonalds and then we went to A-town! ;)

While my mom and aunt looked into the future I was hanging out with my cousin. It's been too long since the last time! =/ We watched some funny comedians (daaah, otherwise they wouldnt be called comedians haha) and just chilled.

Came home and went to bed.

Today Im going to my sisters house to get my nails done! (I will upload a picture when I come home).

More on the fortunetelling when I come home ...

Have a nice day all!

Wow! The weather is really bad today ... Its pooring down. :( I hate it when it rains. It can be quite cosy though, but then it doesnt involve going outside ...

After work Im going home quickly to get my bankcard and then Im going to my moms job. We are going to my aunt tonight for some fortune telling. (appropriate with this weather though ;) After that I will probably go straight to bed.

Im at work today again. At the moment it feels like a bad idea though. My throat hurts like hell when I swallow... and talking on the phone all day will not really help my situation.

We will see how long I will last. At least Its friday, so I have the whole weekend to be silent and rest myself and my throat.

I just read an article in a swedish online newspaper about the little girl Madeleine McCann from the UK that has been missing since the 3rd of May 2007. The parents haa been accused for murdering her and evidence has pointed towards them.

In the article it says that the investigation has been closed but new evidence has been discovered that shows she might have been kidnapped by a goup of pedofiles.

It makes me so mad and at the same time so sad! That is something I have no whatsoever understanding or forgivness for. How can a grown person do something like this to a child? It sickens me and all pedofiles should be put in jail forever or killed. I dont care what people say ... Pedofiles are sick nasty people!

Someone I know was caught for being a pedofile, having loads of pictures and such on his pc. He is now in jail thank god. He is dead to me. After I heard these news and that he was sent to jail I heard that it's the worst of crimes, even among other criminals. If you are put in jail for being a pedofile you will get your punishment from the other prisoners. Well Deserved!

I feel for her family and my thoughts go out to them and her and all other children in the world that are being put through something like this by sick people!

So I decided to stay at home one more day from work so that I can recover completely from this stubborn cold. The thing is I dont think it will go away for a long time... I have had it all summer..

So tomorrow its back to work. Actually it feels good to go back. Its boring just laying here at home all alone.

This weekend I think I will just stay in though ... watch movies and just chill... On saturday my sister is gonna fix my nails though! :) She is really really good at what she does. I will upload some pictures here so that you guys can see :)

Todays playlist:

Jason Mraz - Waiting for my Rocket to come (the whole album)

The weather isnt that good today  ... its cloudy and windy... the perfect day for some candles

I have been lying in my bed all day... watching movies and now Im listening to some chillout music. Need to cook something to eat at work tomorrow... I think I will make salmon and a sallad....

Todays playlist:
Whatever It Takes - Lifehouse
Mr.Big - To be with You
The Kooks - Shine On
The Kooks - Eaten by Your Love
Leona Lewis - Angel
Guy - Not a Day
Leona Lewis - Better in Time
Gavin DeGraw  - More than Anyone


Look in my eyes, what do you see?
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me all you need and I will try
I will try