My eyes go red and my shirt goes wet from the tears...the pain inside hurts more than ever before. It's unbearable. And still it's the same pain that's always been there...always since....well...anyways...the more I think of it the more it hurts... I get a headache. I feel lost...like I don't know where to go...But you will come and show me where to go...you have done so before when the pain has risen like this....and then u have let me lose my way again. It's unbearable...still....can't take it...what should I do. People say nightmares are terrible, I beg the differ. Dreams are the terrible things...because they are never true...and u always wake up sometime...that's why it's a dream... u have to wake up...I don't want to....I won't....A dream that will follow me where no one else can follow. A dream that will be with me through the hardest and darkest times...and I will never wake up. Because when I wake up, there is nothing. Nothing left, a big emptiness...that empty space will be filled, filled with the tears that turn my eyes red and I will slowly drown. I have to wake up before it's to late....I don't want to wake up... I have to....Don't want to....There you are...showing me the way again...and I slowly wander farther and farther into the dream. All is well.....for now....